It Just Doesn't Show

Some may think that I don't give a fuck of what happen around me. Oh, they are so wrong. It may show that I'm okay and that I'm oblivious around me. But it just doesn't show what I'm really feeling inside and what's going on in my head or I just don't really know how to express myself. And sometimes I just don't know how to react on certain things. Yeah, I'm kind of awkward when it comes to some kinda situations that needed my reaction. Or I'm just plain scared. 

 Do I make sense? I hope I do. 

Cyndi x.

Not Knowing.

I've been asking my self for quite some time now. What do I want in life? I'm on the stage where I don't know what I really want in my life. I don't know what I want to be. I know I should be over that phase in my life now, I'm already 21 and I still don't know what I want in my life.

 I've never been so confused in my life. It's really frustrating not knowing what I want in life. I know I should know what I want by now but I don't and it's hard.  I don't know where to go with my journey.

I really hope that I will know what I want like some people. I wish someday I'd know what my heart truly desires. All I can do now is pray and trust God. 

So, for those who have dreams but can't quite reach them, if you know what you want, if you know what your dream is, don't stop chasing it. Never give up. Have faith. Have patience. Someday you'll reach it too. It may take some time but someday it will be all worth it. 

                   

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